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Another Month, Different Obstacles
Well, it's been a bit again, but not as long as sometimes. The last month or so has been odd for me, though I'm not sure I could explain why. My behavior and actions haven't been quite what they usually would be, and I have been having trouble where I lose myself in what I'm doing, only to find it's the end of the day or night and I need to rest.
It seems like every time I come up with a solution to some of my mental issues, something changes and I have to figure stuff out again. Maybe that's just my imagination? I don't know.
I was thinking this morning after I managed to get out of the focus on what I was doing before, that it might help to use this blog not just for coding progress, but to help keep track of what I want to do and why, and generally the other things I do in life.
Work and play aren't that different to me, since I tend to enjoy my work and play somewhat for the sake of refreshing myself for more work, or so I say. I'm not as sure anymore. XD
So, right now it's 9:11am. I haven't made any progress on that game design document since the last post here. There's been lots of playing video games, though. I got pretty deep into Tower of Fantasy when it came out, paused for a while, and then got back into it when I realized that I was getting drawn into whatever I did, and it wasn't just Tower of Fantasy. I started playing Dual Universe last month, and that's been fun too. It's not really what they advertise it as, in my opinion? But what it is exists, it's running, and it's fun. I've paid for two months so far, and there's no 'buy the game at a higher cost and get the first month free' thing like mmos often did. Tell me if you're interested in playing, though? The bonus new players get for having a referral is kinda huge.
I've also started playing Fortnite. I've had issues with Epic as a company, but I've decided to put that aside for now. I was in the beta for the Save the World game, and stopped playing soon after release. They've polished the heck out of it over the years, and the Battle Royale is more fun than I expected. It helps that everything is wacky and gamified so it doesn't feel like 'real' violence, maybe? I don't know.
So, I've been playing these games and I want to continue playing games, but if all I do all day is play games and chat with friends I won't get any 'work' done, and I like my work! It helps me move towards achieving my goals. So, I want to use this blog to help me keep track of what I'm doing, and refocus myself when neccesary.
While it would be nice to do some work on that Game Design Document, I have spent most of the night catching up on the art gallery sites I'd been neglecting, and I'm tired from all of that. I just wanna game right now. But, we'll see how it goes.
I have a physiotherapy appointment at 1:15pm this afternoon, but otherwise I'm pretty free. This evening, hopefully after a sleep, I've got a TTRPG game I play with some friends.
I also want to contact the folks at Hutton House by email to ask if there's any news about the things we talked about last, and I should also look for a job on my own.
I thought there was a lot more I wanted to do, but on reflection I've done a lot today and there isn't much more. I could do groceries, but I probably won't.
For now, it's 9:47am and I'm going to run a round of Save The World's dungeon event in Fortnite.
2:41pm - I had my last Physio appt, that was nice. It helped!
Now I'm almost ready for bed, but I'm going to do one more Fortnite Dungeon, timed this time.
11:21pm - I ended up playing a lot more than 'one' more run. The timed Dungeon is 10 minutes. I haven't succeded yet, but I tried probably ten times at least? Didn't get to sleep early enough, alas, and I was in such a rush to sleep when I got out of that, I forgot to post the journal!
I'll post it now, and start another one for today.
It seems like every time I come up with a solution to some of my mental issues, something changes and I have to figure stuff out again. Maybe that's just my imagination? I don't know.
I was thinking this morning after I managed to get out of the focus on what I was doing before, that it might help to use this blog not just for coding progress, but to help keep track of what I want to do and why, and generally the other things I do in life.
Work and play aren't that different to me, since I tend to enjoy my work and play somewhat for the sake of refreshing myself for more work, or so I say. I'm not as sure anymore. XD
So, right now it's 9:11am. I haven't made any progress on that game design document since the last post here. There's been lots of playing video games, though. I got pretty deep into Tower of Fantasy when it came out, paused for a while, and then got back into it when I realized that I was getting drawn into whatever I did, and it wasn't just Tower of Fantasy. I started playing Dual Universe last month, and that's been fun too. It's not really what they advertise it as, in my opinion? But what it is exists, it's running, and it's fun. I've paid for two months so far, and there's no 'buy the game at a higher cost and get the first month free' thing like mmos often did. Tell me if you're interested in playing, though? The bonus new players get for having a referral is kinda huge.
I've also started playing Fortnite. I've had issues with Epic as a company, but I've decided to put that aside for now. I was in the beta for the Save the World game, and stopped playing soon after release. They've polished the heck out of it over the years, and the Battle Royale is more fun than I expected. It helps that everything is wacky and gamified so it doesn't feel like 'real' violence, maybe? I don't know.
So, I've been playing these games and I want to continue playing games, but if all I do all day is play games and chat with friends I won't get any 'work' done, and I like my work! It helps me move towards achieving my goals. So, I want to use this blog to help me keep track of what I'm doing, and refocus myself when neccesary.
While it would be nice to do some work on that Game Design Document, I have spent most of the night catching up on the art gallery sites I'd been neglecting, and I'm tired from all of that. I just wanna game right now. But, we'll see how it goes.
I have a physiotherapy appointment at 1:15pm this afternoon, but otherwise I'm pretty free. This evening, hopefully after a sleep, I've got a TTRPG game I play with some friends.
I also want to contact the folks at Hutton House by email to ask if there's any news about the things we talked about last, and I should also look for a job on my own.
I thought there was a lot more I wanted to do, but on reflection I've done a lot today and there isn't much more. I could do groceries, but I probably won't.
For now, it's 9:47am and I'm going to run a round of Save The World's dungeon event in Fortnite.
2:41pm - I had my last Physio appt, that was nice. It helped!
Now I'm almost ready for bed, but I'm going to do one more Fortnite Dungeon, timed this time.
11:21pm - I ended up playing a lot more than 'one' more run. The timed Dungeon is 10 minutes. I haven't succeded yet, but I tried probably ten times at least? Didn't get to sleep early enough, alas, and I was in such a rush to sleep when I got out of that, I forgot to post the journal!
I'll post it now, and start another one for today.