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Trying Some More Just To Do Things
Using my Dreamwidth blog to track daily activities lasted four days. It was an experiment, I suppose.
Right now it's 5am, I've been up since 6pm yesterday. I once again spent the majority of the day playing Fortnite, primarily in Save the World mode. It's been a blast. As I recall, the reason I didn't play it after release was that I had already played it so much during Beta that I was sick of it. Now I'm back in it, it's better than ever, and I'm having entirely too much fun. It's very time consuming, and so each day rolls by without much else done. I poke around in Dual Universe and Tower of Fantasy a bit too, but that's all video game playing. What else am I doing?
I have been multitasking a lot. Watching videos and things on my other monitor. I'm pretty close to getting a new job. Things are going okay, I guess? I do want to do more with my life, though.
I've been trying to do three things. Getting back to gamedev is one that hasn't happened. I've been ready to get back to work on the design doc for my dommy monsters game for a long time now, but haven't done it. I was thinking about doing it now, but couldn't get myself to do it, so I'm writing this.
The other two things, I've been trying to get into societal change, and developing artificial intelligence. I'm not really sure where to do that though. I've had tons of ideas for changing the world and society, and making it all more fair and balanced. I don't know if they're good ideas though, and I'm looking for people to colaborate with and bounce ideas off of. Ideally folks who know more about the history of social change, revolution, socialism, communism, and other alternatives.
Artificial Intelligence... I would like to contribute to the development of technology that makes real, thinking, computer people. I don't really know where to go to do that though. There's so much AI tech in the world that means so many different things, and I don't know where people would meet to discuss it.
Both of those problems are having the same results. I ask around, and don't get a lot of response. The AI one had more response than the social change one, anyways...
Tonight I'm having weird feelings. I've gotten out of Fortnite after a long game, and I want to work on my gamedev. I also have some stuff to do for my new job, that I should really do first. I want to do the gamedev first, but I'm not really doing either.
I have an idea. It might be a bad idea. I'm going to try to 'reset' my mind by stopping doing things for a while, just cuddle and chill out. Afterwards, I'll try to do some work again. I don't know if that'll fix this weird emotional state I'm in, but at least I'll be trying something.
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Okay I did that, but I'm not sure it really reset me. I do feel somewhat different?
I'm not sure how much I actually want to do this, and how much I'm forcing myself to do it. I want to talk about it, here, in text. I'll try and hype myself up, or just figure it out again.
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I said I was going to do that, then I didn't. It's the next day, for me. We'll see how this one goes...
Right now it's 5am, I've been up since 6pm yesterday. I once again spent the majority of the day playing Fortnite, primarily in Save the World mode. It's been a blast. As I recall, the reason I didn't play it after release was that I had already played it so much during Beta that I was sick of it. Now I'm back in it, it's better than ever, and I'm having entirely too much fun. It's very time consuming, and so each day rolls by without much else done. I poke around in Dual Universe and Tower of Fantasy a bit too, but that's all video game playing. What else am I doing?
I have been multitasking a lot. Watching videos and things on my other monitor. I'm pretty close to getting a new job. Things are going okay, I guess? I do want to do more with my life, though.
I've been trying to do three things. Getting back to gamedev is one that hasn't happened. I've been ready to get back to work on the design doc for my dommy monsters game for a long time now, but haven't done it. I was thinking about doing it now, but couldn't get myself to do it, so I'm writing this.
The other two things, I've been trying to get into societal change, and developing artificial intelligence. I'm not really sure where to do that though. I've had tons of ideas for changing the world and society, and making it all more fair and balanced. I don't know if they're good ideas though, and I'm looking for people to colaborate with and bounce ideas off of. Ideally folks who know more about the history of social change, revolution, socialism, communism, and other alternatives.
Artificial Intelligence... I would like to contribute to the development of technology that makes real, thinking, computer people. I don't really know where to go to do that though. There's so much AI tech in the world that means so many different things, and I don't know where people would meet to discuss it.
Both of those problems are having the same results. I ask around, and don't get a lot of response. The AI one had more response than the social change one, anyways...
Tonight I'm having weird feelings. I've gotten out of Fortnite after a long game, and I want to work on my gamedev. I also have some stuff to do for my new job, that I should really do first. I want to do the gamedev first, but I'm not really doing either.
I have an idea. It might be a bad idea. I'm going to try to 'reset' my mind by stopping doing things for a while, just cuddle and chill out. Afterwards, I'll try to do some work again. I don't know if that'll fix this weird emotional state I'm in, but at least I'll be trying something.
---
Okay I did that, but I'm not sure it really reset me. I do feel somewhat different?
I'm not sure how much I actually want to do this, and how much I'm forcing myself to do it. I want to talk about it, here, in text. I'll try and hype myself up, or just figure it out again.
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I said I was going to do that, then I didn't. It's the next day, for me. We'll see how this one goes...