On Day, Back on the Horse
Mar. 26th, 2023 05:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
relee8:52pm - I haven't been well since my last entry. Not that I've been sick exactly, it's more of a mental health thing. I wouldn't say depressed, either. There's been irl work that needed to be done, that sapped what I had to make myself work on my other stuff, but also there's been emotional issues, that I've been struggling with.
I did find in the time I was off my schedule, that the improvements I had noticed were as real as I thought they were, and they went away sure enough. Even though I did do some things that I didn't post about here, I didn't do them with the scheduled "Three hours on" and that meant I didn't have the structure or clear achievement of having done it in a measurable way. On top of that, when I wasn't working, I didn't have that "I earned this, I already worked." thing to make myself feel better. I mostly spent my time playing X4: Foundations, and being sucked into it HARD. Even when I'm done this today, I'm going to avoid playing that today. I need to catch up on ARK stuff and Elden Ring. ^.^;;
Anyways for today's session, I've got a lot on my plate. I got contacted by one of my job search support people, reminding me that I am supposed to be searching for jobs, and that I didn't contact the other job search support person to set up an appointment after we talked via email before. Oops.
So I want to take care of that, though I'm getting a pretty big "Aversion" feeling in my head while typing this, so it's not going to be easy.
I also think I should do a bit of actual job searching, even though it's late at night and I can't call anybody.
Apart from that, there's the community building stuff.
I realized after my last entry that all of the things I have planned neccesitate forming and managing communities. I'm not really excited about that part. I don't know if I can do it well or not. It's basically going to be the "Hard Part" that I don't want to do, in between where I am and my goals that I want to achieve.
It'll probably be mostly or entirely online, especially to start, but I need to form communities for my games, both Dommy Monsters and the Open Source Survival Game project. For the latter one in particular, if I'm going to get anyone else to work on it open-source style, I have to lead the project. That means encouraging people, spreading the word, dealing with disputes, reading and approving pull requests and making sure they work, all sorts of stuff.
For the social revolution sort of thing, I still haven't found a community to join that doesn't seem to be based around taking advantage of people's anger to make things worse instead of better, and I'm not sure any of those are even real communities. I haven't finished looking, though, I have other ideas to try, but I'm not having much luck, and nobody I ask who ought to already be in one knows about any.
These socialists are way to independant, you know?
Then there's the AI stuff. Well, I really can't do that one on my own. I think it's far more likely that groups already exist for that one, but we'll see about if I need to form communities for that too. I don't really want to be a community manager or a leader, but that may have to be a collection of hats I'll be wearing some of the time.
Besides the front and center personal life goals stuff, there's also my fiance Alex. They're a writer, and they haven't had much luck getting readers or supporters. I haven't had much luck advertising for them in the past, either. I think that having a community would help them a lot, so I want to build and manage one for them.
For them and for myself, I also want to include patronage systems. I know about Patreon and Subscribestar, and I've heard of folks cutting out the middleman and making their own by going with Stripe, the payment processor for those sites. I've heard this can be an issue with international taxation, though, so research is a thing.
9:19pm - I actually told some friends just before bed what I need to do today. Let me copypaste that maybe.
Well, I stayed up all night again, past what my body would like. I'm not sure what's driving me to stay up or avoid sleep or whatever is going on with me lately.
I didn't do a three hour thing today either, but I can't say I didn't do anything. Still, not doing that hasn't been helpful. When I was doing the day-on day-off properly, I was not just getting stuff done, I was also enjoying my relax days more. Now it's not working out that way.
Tomorrow I'm going to try and do an on-day, and do three hours of life-goals work like I had been. Included in there, I'd like to get back to my job search helpers at Goodwill, and maybe do some job search.
Otherwise I want to focus in and work on the tech side of the community setup I want to do.
There's three big things for that.
I want to set up a Discord, a Slack, and a Matrix and bridge them all. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xLqQvt3aig
I also want to try and do https://indieweb.org/ stuff like POSSE and backfeed using https://brid.gy/
Since at least two of the things I'm doing are gamedev projects, one properly open source, the other code available, I also want to make sure and set things up on sites like Github and alternatives. What are the alternatives these days? Gotta look that up. Is Bitbucket still around?
I also want to learn more about RSS and Atom. I didn't get into them until they were about to 'die' but they're not really dead, just ignored, and I think I can use them still.
Patronage systems are something I also need to investigate. Patreon, Subscribestar, and rolling my own.
Notably, a lot of this stuff isn't just for me. There's none I'm not going to use for myself, but I also think I can use some of this for Alex's sake. I dunno if Rob needs/wants any of this. ^.^;;
It might also be good to actually set up that Wiki for Alex, though, like I said so long ago. It would be a learning experience!
That's way too much for three hours, but I guess we'll see what happens when I get up.
That's what I told them. Also I can't believe I remembered the HTML and CSS to make that 2em margin with a div element without having to look anything up. XD
I haven't done anything like that in years, but I guess I did it a lot in the past. It's rare for anything to take html for formatting like Dreamwidth still does.
9:36pm - So as you can see, there's a lot of stuff I want to do. The starting points for that is mostly researching all the different things, what's out there, what can connect, what I want to use, that sort of thing.
Before I get too carried away, though, I want to do the thing I don't want to do, right? I'm going to email my job support people.
10:26pm - I've sent emails to both of them, though I've been getting distracted a lot. Unfortunately, I want to do a lot of my research in part by asking about things on Discord and other places that are distracting. It'll be difficult!
One more job thing, I'm going to look at job aggregators a bit, then move on to the community building stuff.
10:51pm - I found four jobs to apply to. We'll see how that goes.
Now we're two hours in, and I haven't touched on what I actually care about, and also am struggling with emotionally. So, I'll have to do some of that just to get the ball rolling, maybe out of the emotional thorns.
Let's make lists.
Discord, Matrix, and Slack - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xLqQvt3aig
Mastodon, Twitter, Github, Facebook, Reddit, and my own Blog - https://brid.gy/
March 26, 2023, 5:36pm - A medical emergency happened at about the end of my third hour, so I spent most of yesterday in the ER waiting room with my Dad. He's okay and doing better. Hopefully it stays that way. Since I did do the whole three hours I'm happy to say "That Counts!" and that means today is an off-day. I just need to post this because I hadn't finished up and pushed post before we rushed off.
I did find in the time I was off my schedule, that the improvements I had noticed were as real as I thought they were, and they went away sure enough. Even though I did do some things that I didn't post about here, I didn't do them with the scheduled "Three hours on" and that meant I didn't have the structure or clear achievement of having done it in a measurable way. On top of that, when I wasn't working, I didn't have that "I earned this, I already worked." thing to make myself feel better. I mostly spent my time playing X4: Foundations, and being sucked into it HARD. Even when I'm done this today, I'm going to avoid playing that today. I need to catch up on ARK stuff and Elden Ring. ^.^;;
Anyways for today's session, I've got a lot on my plate. I got contacted by one of my job search support people, reminding me that I am supposed to be searching for jobs, and that I didn't contact the other job search support person to set up an appointment after we talked via email before. Oops.
So I want to take care of that, though I'm getting a pretty big "Aversion" feeling in my head while typing this, so it's not going to be easy.
I also think I should do a bit of actual job searching, even though it's late at night and I can't call anybody.
Apart from that, there's the community building stuff.
I realized after my last entry that all of the things I have planned neccesitate forming and managing communities. I'm not really excited about that part. I don't know if I can do it well or not. It's basically going to be the "Hard Part" that I don't want to do, in between where I am and my goals that I want to achieve.
It'll probably be mostly or entirely online, especially to start, but I need to form communities for my games, both Dommy Monsters and the Open Source Survival Game project. For the latter one in particular, if I'm going to get anyone else to work on it open-source style, I have to lead the project. That means encouraging people, spreading the word, dealing with disputes, reading and approving pull requests and making sure they work, all sorts of stuff.
For the social revolution sort of thing, I still haven't found a community to join that doesn't seem to be based around taking advantage of people's anger to make things worse instead of better, and I'm not sure any of those are even real communities. I haven't finished looking, though, I have other ideas to try, but I'm not having much luck, and nobody I ask who ought to already be in one knows about any.
These socialists are way to independant, you know?
Then there's the AI stuff. Well, I really can't do that one on my own. I think it's far more likely that groups already exist for that one, but we'll see about if I need to form communities for that too. I don't really want to be a community manager or a leader, but that may have to be a collection of hats I'll be wearing some of the time.
Besides the front and center personal life goals stuff, there's also my fiance Alex. They're a writer, and they haven't had much luck getting readers or supporters. I haven't had much luck advertising for them in the past, either. I think that having a community would help them a lot, so I want to build and manage one for them.
For them and for myself, I also want to include patronage systems. I know about Patreon and Subscribestar, and I've heard of folks cutting out the middleman and making their own by going with Stripe, the payment processor for those sites. I've heard this can be an issue with international taxation, though, so research is a thing.
9:19pm - I actually told some friends just before bed what I need to do today. Let me copypaste that maybe.
Well, I stayed up all night again, past what my body would like. I'm not sure what's driving me to stay up or avoid sleep or whatever is going on with me lately.
I didn't do a three hour thing today either, but I can't say I didn't do anything. Still, not doing that hasn't been helpful. When I was doing the day-on day-off properly, I was not just getting stuff done, I was also enjoying my relax days more. Now it's not working out that way.
Tomorrow I'm going to try and do an on-day, and do three hours of life-goals work like I had been. Included in there, I'd like to get back to my job search helpers at Goodwill, and maybe do some job search.
Otherwise I want to focus in and work on the tech side of the community setup I want to do.
There's three big things for that.
I want to set up a Discord, a Slack, and a Matrix and bridge them all. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xLqQvt3aig
I also want to try and do https://indieweb.org/ stuff like POSSE and backfeed using https://brid.gy/
Since at least two of the things I'm doing are gamedev projects, one properly open source, the other code available, I also want to make sure and set things up on sites like Github and alternatives. What are the alternatives these days? Gotta look that up. Is Bitbucket still around?
I also want to learn more about RSS and Atom. I didn't get into them until they were about to 'die' but they're not really dead, just ignored, and I think I can use them still.
Patronage systems are something I also need to investigate. Patreon, Subscribestar, and rolling my own.
Notably, a lot of this stuff isn't just for me. There's none I'm not going to use for myself, but I also think I can use some of this for Alex's sake. I dunno if Rob needs/wants any of this. ^.^;;
It might also be good to actually set up that Wiki for Alex, though, like I said so long ago. It would be a learning experience!
That's way too much for three hours, but I guess we'll see what happens when I get up.
That's what I told them. Also I can't believe I remembered the HTML and CSS to make that 2em margin with a div element without having to look anything up. XD
I haven't done anything like that in years, but I guess I did it a lot in the past. It's rare for anything to take html for formatting like Dreamwidth still does.
9:36pm - So as you can see, there's a lot of stuff I want to do. The starting points for that is mostly researching all the different things, what's out there, what can connect, what I want to use, that sort of thing.
Before I get too carried away, though, I want to do the thing I don't want to do, right? I'm going to email my job support people.
10:26pm - I've sent emails to both of them, though I've been getting distracted a lot. Unfortunately, I want to do a lot of my research in part by asking about things on Discord and other places that are distracting. It'll be difficult!
One more job thing, I'm going to look at job aggregators a bit, then move on to the community building stuff.
10:51pm - I found four jobs to apply to. We'll see how that goes.
Now we're two hours in, and I haven't touched on what I actually care about, and also am struggling with emotionally. So, I'll have to do some of that just to get the ball rolling, maybe out of the emotional thorns.
Let's make lists.
Discord, Matrix, and Slack - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xLqQvt3aig
Mastodon, Twitter, Github, Facebook, Reddit, and my own Blog - https://brid.gy/
March 26, 2023, 5:36pm - A medical emergency happened at about the end of my third hour, so I spent most of yesterday in the ER waiting room with my Dad. He's okay and doing better. Hopefully it stays that way. Since I did do the whole three hours I'm happy to say "That Counts!" and that means today is an off-day. I just need to post this because I hadn't finished up and pushed post before we rushed off.
