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5:28am - So it's been at least three weeks since I worked last. I've had a bad time, in general, and it hit me harder than I can understand, or feel. I can only look at the effect it had in postvision and say 'wow, that was bad'.
Hope carries me forward always, and today I'm at the McDonalds with my laptop out hoping to do work again.
It's a bit tricky picking up again after all this time, especially when the last couple times I tried to work before falling down, I was stuck on something.
I'm going to have to go over my work and figure out what everything is again. It's difficult because even when I keep notes, the most essential thing is keeping a mental model of what I'm working on, and without that I'm lost. So I have to build one up from the beginning again. At least I don't have to do all the work again. ;)
5:54am - Okay I've got the code open and my brain is melting as I try to comprehend my prior work and the direction I was building the code.
6:20am - Man this is hard. The stupid thing is my brain keeps saying 'Do it again from scratch!' like that would be easier somehow? It doesn't make sense.
Anyways near as I can tell I've got two scriptable objects referenced by a "SceneInitializer" which is attached to the camera. One is a game state management thingy which might not even be neccesary, and the other is the turn list.
The turn list is supposed to drive the game, but right now the player has a direct control movement script on it. I'm not sure why I did that.
6:37am - I'm really frustrated because I'm really tired and I haven't even been up for 12 hours yet. :/
I thought "Hey, I got up at 7pm, I'm gonna be up past dawn today, better go to McD's and work this morning and get some groceries on the way home." but here I am at only six thirty and my brain is melting and I feel like crashing right now.
This is especially bad because normally I motivate myself by saying something like "Yeah this is dull but what am I gonna do at home?" and I have no good answer, but now I do, and the answer is sleep.
7:43am - Geez, I didn't think there could be anything worse than simply not getting anything done this morning, but I just spent almost an hour curled up hugging my balled up sweatshirt having paniced fantasies of how everything could go wrong. :/
The snow has gotten pretty bad. I don't know if it's going to get worse or what. I still want to get some things from the grocery on my way home, but I don't think I can get any more work done in this condition.
9:04am - I managed to pass the time until nine, when the grocery store opens. Now to get the groceries and head home.
Hope carries me forward always, and today I'm at the McDonalds with my laptop out hoping to do work again.
It's a bit tricky picking up again after all this time, especially when the last couple times I tried to work before falling down, I was stuck on something.
I'm going to have to go over my work and figure out what everything is again. It's difficult because even when I keep notes, the most essential thing is keeping a mental model of what I'm working on, and without that I'm lost. So I have to build one up from the beginning again. At least I don't have to do all the work again. ;)
5:54am - Okay I've got the code open and my brain is melting as I try to comprehend my prior work and the direction I was building the code.
6:20am - Man this is hard. The stupid thing is my brain keeps saying 'Do it again from scratch!' like that would be easier somehow? It doesn't make sense.
Anyways near as I can tell I've got two scriptable objects referenced by a "SceneInitializer" which is attached to the camera. One is a game state management thingy which might not even be neccesary, and the other is the turn list.
The turn list is supposed to drive the game, but right now the player has a direct control movement script on it. I'm not sure why I did that.
6:37am - I'm really frustrated because I'm really tired and I haven't even been up for 12 hours yet. :/
I thought "Hey, I got up at 7pm, I'm gonna be up past dawn today, better go to McD's and work this morning and get some groceries on the way home." but here I am at only six thirty and my brain is melting and I feel like crashing right now.
This is especially bad because normally I motivate myself by saying something like "Yeah this is dull but what am I gonna do at home?" and I have no good answer, but now I do, and the answer is sleep.
7:43am - Geez, I didn't think there could be anything worse than simply not getting anything done this morning, but I just spent almost an hour curled up hugging my balled up sweatshirt having paniced fantasies of how everything could go wrong. :/
The snow has gotten pretty bad. I don't know if it's going to get worse or what. I still want to get some things from the grocery on my way home, but I don't think I can get any more work done in this condition.
9:04am - I managed to pass the time until nine, when the grocery store opens. Now to get the groceries and head home.
