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5:41am - I'm down at the McDonalds again. I listened to a bunch of Dragon Quest music earlier and that got me thinking about the RPG Maker stuff I'm supposed to be helping with. I'm kind of stuck for anything to help them with right now, so I asked the team lead for some input. In the mean time I guess I'm back to working on my own projects.
I've been really getting upset over my lack of ability to work on World of Thardomhainn. One of my pillars of self-worth is my ability to work and create things, and this inability to do anything with my project besides stare dumbly at it is crumbling that pillar.
5:58am - I got a bit distracted and while distracted I noticed that 7DRL is coming up soon; March 2nd. I don't know if I'll participate or not but I put up a reminder for myself for later. It's taken me a long time to get anything done the way I'm making WoT but making a simpler roguelike from scratch might be easier and provide me with more perspective on what I'm doing.
Anyways Zach isn't responding to my question about what he wants done; he probably left his Discord online and fell asleep or something. It's about 6am after all.
I'm going to open up WoT and see if I can puzzle out what I need to do next.
7:00am - Well I opened it and then I kind of got distracted hard. At first it was sort of useful stuff, looking at some info on Roguelike development. Then I ended up wanting to listen to something else on YouTube and watched a bunch of videos...
7:18am - Went to the washroom, feeling a bit stressed out, and I haven't even really tried anything yet. :/
8:48am - I was starting to get a bit woozy and had trouble standing straight so I ordered a bit more food and refilled my drink. Then I watched another Issac Arthur vid. So good. <3
But I haven't been working at all and I haven't heard from Zach yet either.
9:00am - I'm not sure what to do next. I feel like I'm making a mountain out of a molehill. Amplifying the difficulty by worrying about it too much and not doing it. Yet is it already too late? I can't seem to turn my thoughts towards my work without getting sick.
11:53am - Well I never did settle down and get to work, but I watched a bunch of YouTube so that's something.
Now I'm going to go pick up some groceries on my way home.
I've been really getting upset over my lack of ability to work on World of Thardomhainn. One of my pillars of self-worth is my ability to work and create things, and this inability to do anything with my project besides stare dumbly at it is crumbling that pillar.
5:58am - I got a bit distracted and while distracted I noticed that 7DRL is coming up soon; March 2nd. I don't know if I'll participate or not but I put up a reminder for myself for later. It's taken me a long time to get anything done the way I'm making WoT but making a simpler roguelike from scratch might be easier and provide me with more perspective on what I'm doing.
Anyways Zach isn't responding to my question about what he wants done; he probably left his Discord online and fell asleep or something. It's about 6am after all.
I'm going to open up WoT and see if I can puzzle out what I need to do next.
7:00am - Well I opened it and then I kind of got distracted hard. At first it was sort of useful stuff, looking at some info on Roguelike development. Then I ended up wanting to listen to something else on YouTube and watched a bunch of videos...
7:18am - Went to the washroom, feeling a bit stressed out, and I haven't even really tried anything yet. :/
8:48am - I was starting to get a bit woozy and had trouble standing straight so I ordered a bit more food and refilled my drink. Then I watched another Issac Arthur vid. So good. <3
But I haven't been working at all and I haven't heard from Zach yet either.
9:00am - I'm not sure what to do next. I feel like I'm making a mountain out of a molehill. Amplifying the difficulty by worrying about it too much and not doing it. Yet is it already too late? I can't seem to turn my thoughts towards my work without getting sick.
11:53am - Well I never did settle down and get to work, but I watched a bunch of YouTube so that's something.
Now I'm going to go pick up some groceries on my way home.
