Work Post

[relee]

5:18am - Well I'm out at the McDonalds again. They forgot to unlock the doors though so I was standing outside for a half hour waiting. That sucked. :/

I'm in now and had 'breakfast' but now I'm just sitting here low on energy and trying to figure out what I came out here to do.

5:32am - Alright let's see what I was doing before. Ahh yes, I stalled when I went to check out the online Game Programming Patterns book. I wanted to get the patterns down so I knew what I was building ahead of time.

5:47am - I'm having trouble focusing.

5:58pm - I put on some relaxing jazz music instead of the video game music I had on. Hopefully that'll help me concentrate.

Mmm... Nope. I'm not getting anything right now. Shoot. Came all the way out here and I can't seem to think about my work.

6:13am - Bleh, still nothing. I don't know what's wrong, even. I just can't seem to think about the subject.

6:29am - Unable to work on my programming I did a little job searching, but that's just demoralized me further. I also sent an email to the lady who helps me at Goodwill, saying I'm ready to resume my search for work.

I'm not sure what to do now. I'm already feeling tired. I've been our for two and a half hours now. But nothing is clicking.

I'm thinking about going home and picking up a snack on the way. That seems awful though. :/

How am I supposed to go on if I can't make games?

Maybe I should try a different project before I jump to conclusions like 'I can't make games anymore' but right now there's no other projects I want to work on. It's hard to think about starting anything new too.

Yeah I think I'm going to just go home now. I'm not sure what I'll do when I get there but I'm not really comfortable here this morning, and maybe that's the problem? I'm not sure.

*sigh*

Comments

[scalyshoujo]

I'm not sure if this is very helpful, and it might be info you already know, but maybe a good way to work out how you want to continue on with game development is to continue to try and work with simple to program but lesser used concepts. I really liked that idea you had a little while ago with using the route system from Demonhead in something. I think that sometimes in games, a few little twists go along away. I don't think everything necessarily has to be completely sandbox to create a sense of wonder if that makes sense.

Of course, it might be more the math of the programming that's getting to you and not inspiration. If so, maybe that's less on you and more on the creators of things like Unity not making these things intuitive enough.

I hope the job search goes well, in the sense that both you get something and get something you can actually do. It's not really fun to wind up in a job that you suddenly find you can't succeed in even with a lot of hard work and determination because you don't actually know what you're doing, something I learned from personal experience.^^; So I hope you find something that suits you. :)

[relee]

I appreciate your support!

[scalyshoujo]

No prob. :D Best of luck. ^^